Do you ever see something or hear a story and think, I wish I could do that now? Or, in my case lately, “Why didn’t I start getting tattoos and dye my hair pink when i was 20? Or 35?” Lately I’ve been drawn to fashion and looks far removed from my current age and style, and I’m not really sure what to do with it.
The last time I remember feeling this way was during my obsession with hats and masks with ears. While Thora Birch pulled this look off flawlessly as an 18-year-old in Ghost World and my son can rock a rainbow hat with ears, I knew it wouldn’t work for me at 41.
I seem to be going through a tattoo phase now. So far I’ve had three tattoo phases, but no tattoos. Last time I got obsessed with tattoos it was during the summer I watched Rock Star: Supernova.
Sometimes I just want to go get a small tattoo. Maybe something designy, like the three squares of my logo or a single letter in really cool font.
Then I think about the needles. And my age. Now isn’t the time that most people start decorating their body with permanent art.
Then I tell myself that I’m not most people. Maybe I should just go for it, and dye my hair pink too. Or at least buy a fun wig…or get one or two pink stripes.
Then I go and eat some chips and salsa instead.
On to fashion. I’ll admit that most days I just wear my pajamas, but every now and then I get out and go to events, meet friends, and travel. So, I still need clothes.
Like many of us, most of the clothes I wore before I became pregnant are gone. Even further gone is the ah-mah-zing wardrobe I had when I was a too-busy-and-stressed-out-to-eat smoker living in L.A. and working in the movie industry.
I have these two fashion boards that I play with on Pinterest: Fashion Ideas and Fun Fashion. Fashion ideas are more practical. Things I could actually wear, or at least wear some less expensive version of them.
Fun fashion is for the daring, outlandish, or too young for me stuff I appreciate and admire, but most of it I could never actually wear. There are some exceptions, like jewelry, bags, or tees, but overall these things wouldn’t work for me/my body/my age/my bank account.
So I guess my question is this…what do you do when your inner you is conflicting with your outer you? What if your inner you is 25 and your outer you is 42? What if your inner body is pre-baby and your outer body is post-baby? I want to merge these things and I’m not really sure where to start.
I’ll be waiting for your thoughts, ideas, comments, or pink wigs. xo